Some other day I’ll have a better post than this, I’m sorry.
I’m having pretty much the worst day. I need an essay to be finished tomorrow but my tutor kept ‘forgetting’ to leave out a photocopy for me…the only piece of literature on the essay I need to do. My final chance to get it was today, and to talk to him about the essay, but he decided he didn’t want to come into uni today.
He said I could pick up the photocopy from another girl in my class who might be in the library – she wasn’t. It is apparently an ‘inaccessible’ essay. Fantastic.
And he’s angry at me for missing the class where he gave it out and talked about the essay, and for that reason he doesn’t think I deserve to know about the essay or have the capability to do it. I missed that class because I was at a funeral, and he knows that. And I missed his other class because I was at a job interview that he had recommended me for.
So right now I cannot do the essay – I have scoured the library for anything on the subject and been pretty much unsuccessful. It wasn’t so hard for him to put the photocopy in his door pocket a week ago, even a couple of days ago.
But I need to go home for the wedding, I’d planned to get this essay done over the weekend and I tried and tried to do that but he was so incapable of helping me. He knew I’d been ill, he knew I had funerals, 5 essays, dissertation, 5 exams, job interviews and weddings. And he’s my tutor – he’s supposed to be the one in charge of my wellbeing at uni. When I tried to tell him I felt it was all getting a bit much and I would like to speak to him, he ignored me. Literally, ignored me.
So basically, I feel like I’m going to fail, at least this module. Maybe not ‘fail’, but fail for me. I have worked so hard for the past 3 years, and this could sabotage everything I have worked for. I can’t help that I was so ill with cystitis and a possible kidney infection that I couldn’t leave my house for days. I can’t help that someone died. I could have not gone to my job interview, but really?! And I tried to sort out this essay weeks ago. I’ve already made complaints about him, there isn’t a lot more I can do.
I’m sorry for this post, but I hope you at least enjoy the outfit photos: new peplum top, new blazer (thought it would be smart for teaching) and awesome purple jeans. Feel like I’m 15 again when I wear them. Photos from Sunday.