I Still Exist!!

Hi everyone! I just wanted to let you all know that although I haven’t been around much lately (except on Twitter), I am still here, I do still exist. The world is just against me blogging at the moment for several reasons. First of all, I managed to come down with the worse case of cystitis ever that had me pretty much screaming in pain, although I’m pretty sure you don’t want to know the details. As you probably remember, I had a horrible flu at the start of my Easter holidays, which transfigured itself into sinusitis, so I was put on to antibiotics. That took me right up to the end of my Easter holidays, and it seems to be that those antibiotics give me cystitis, so within a few days I back on antibiotics (a different kind) for the cystitis. I came back up to Newcastle thinking it would be fine within a day, but it definitely wasn’t, so I ended up going home again and being put on some super strong antibiotics. Unfortunately I’m still feeling it now, although this just feels like ‘normal’ cystitis. I spoke to the nurse yesterday who thinks it might be a kidney infection, but Michelle and I have also been discussing the possibility that it might be interstitial cystitis =( Basically it hurts, but not as much as at the start. 

So yeh, that’s one way the world’s against me blogging. On top of that I’ve had a massive build up of work – I planned to get a lot done over Easter, but with the flu/sinusitis/cystitis, I barely got any done, and now I’ve got all of that on top of translations. At the moment I’m working on my dissertation, I’m 12 pages in and probably about half way (it’s only 8000 words limit), but then I have 5 other essays (of around 2000-4000 words) for the next 2 weeks, then the wedding, then 5 exams. So…yeh. 

Then yesterday we got the awful news that Ben’s great uncle had died. His great aunt and uncle on that side are like another set of grandparents to Ben and his sister, because they never had their own children and live right next door to his grandparents, so whenever they saw them (which was at least once a week), they would see the aunt and uncle too. And weirdly, that aunt and uncle used to be next door neighbours to my mum all her childhood, so Ben’s uncle and my grandad were really good friends. So I knew of him before I even knew Ben, and I’ve even got pretty close to his aunt and uncle. Unfortunately recently it became clear that he had onset of Alzheimers, although that’s not what he succumbed to. It was very sudden – we heard on Tuesday night at 10pm from Ben’s mum that he had gone into hospital and that Ben’s aunt had been told to come in, and yesterday evening we were told that he had died. He had had no major problems (apart from this onset of Alzheimers) up until then, so it all happened very quickly. He had had stomach pains that day, gone to hospital, gone into surgery where they discovered a blood clot in his bowel and the tissue all round it had died, and in less than 24 hours he had passed away. It might seem like I’m making a big deal out of someone that wasn’t really a close relation to me, but he is the closest person to me I’ve ever known to die. I’ve been very lucky in that respect, although it means I’m not very well equipped to deal with such things. On top of that I’m a very emotional person in general anyway – I used to cry when my pet snails died, I cry if I see a baby born on TV, you get the picture. So that kind of threw me a bit further out of kilter.

And on top of all that, it’s raining. If you live in the UK, or even follow someone’s blog or Twitter in the UK, you will probably have heard this a thousand times already – but it has been raining non-stop here for about a week now. Anyone who knows me will tell you that I hate rain, honestly I hate nothing much more than rain. So I waited and waited for a gap in it today to take outfit photos, but it failed massively, as did my indoor ones, so I’m sorry but no outfit photos today (except the one at the top, but I don’t think it counts).

So anyway, you get the picture, I’m whiny, complainy, stressed and a bit emotional at the moment. So you’re probably better without me blogging right now!! I promise I’ll be back soon because I have some awesome outfits I want to show you. And I’ll leave you with this: I thought it would be funny to have my Matalan order delivered to ‘Rev. B Robinson’ because I’m cool like that =D